You are so much more than they could ever become. You know
that. You know you will rise so much higher than anyone thought you could go.
You have everything in you to do it- and you will use all of it. You’ve
survived all this time and now it’s time to live. So face the things that are
hindering your tools. Think about what a terrible person your mother was for
leaving her children. Think about how blind your biological father was for not
seeing what every dad should see. Think about how unfair your father was for
treating you like so much less than you are. Shame on them all. Put yourself in
the darkest and most painful places that you’ve been to. Revisit them. Let the
wind sweep the rocks and dust into your skin and beat the hail upon your shoulders
while your worst fears and most hurtful memories manifest around you. Stay
there. Stay there and don’t come out until the light of your reasoning and
strength break through and offer you a ladder to your own salvation. It won’t
be quick, or enjoyable, but the feeling when you get out and can wield the
tools of your talent, character and spirit will be so beyond worth all the
suffering you’ll face. David, you must put yourself there. You’ve never needed
anyone, to survive. You don’t need anyone, to live.
